I have a whole plethora of emotions going on inside me, and I'm not quite sure how to handle it. I haven't been able to come up with even one cent to get to this casting call. The "Donation" blog post I wrote a few weeks ago has a whopping 57 views and not one donation. I need help.
I know I really need to be making a video to submit, but in the rules it says that someone else has to be holding the camera so I can be in front of the camera the whole time. The problem, my husband works all day long and my mom also works and doesn't have time to do it. I feel like I am being a burden to my family by asking them to take time out of their day for me. I know I need to submit something to Holland Weathers and the BL casting team, but I feel like time is just slipping away from me!!
From all this stress I haven't been eating and exercising regularly. I have gained 5 lbs in the past week. I am SO mad at myself right now. I can't even think straight. I NEED to get on this show.
I feel like I am having a MAJOR struggle trying to get my family on board or at least being supportive to me and my life change. I don't think they get that I will DIE if I fail at this mission it get fit. I need their support and I feel like I don't get what I need from them.
Please pray for me. I am just not seeing the light.
If you would like to donate to my cause, please see the blog post before this one.
Thank you, Carissa <3
